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April 23, 2006
Sliding Toward Melancholy
Sometimes I wish things could be the way some men thing they are. You see someone you find attractive. You do whatever the two of you want and you don't worry about conversation, romance, or talking in general. But it's worth it right? All the trouble of relationships, is better than that system, right?
I know this is kind of a departure from my last post. But that's the thing about relationships isn't it? Someone makes you really happy, you want to be with them, and if something is wrong-- even a little wrong-- you worry. You can't be happy because you're afraid your happiness is going to be taken away from you.
Long story short, I said something that was misinterpreted. And he's at home so we can't really talk it out face to face. And I just feel like he's really mad at me. Although obviously I can't be in his head. Since I said this thing we've spent hours making out. Then it came up again and he told me he angry at me for it. Confusing no? Anyway. I feel really alone. Because the people that I feel like I can talk to about these things don't know him. And the people that do know him don't really know me.
And I've just been obsessing over this since last night. I hate phone conversations. Things always come across wrong. I hate that I'm this upset over this. I didn't sleep well last night and I've been tense and totally unable to concentrate all day. Not that my concentration was working all that well when things were going perfectly between us.
I need friends here that I really trust. And I don't have any.
Posted by kt at April 23, 2006 2:35 PM
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Katie me love, you always have us. Coupla things (how I love them)
1. Don't fret. By the end of this week you won't even remember what it was you were worrying about. It'll all come out right, just talk to him when he comes back from home. You'll resolve the issue and get back to the way it was before. This sort of thing happens all the time.
2. WE LOVE YOU FOREVER AND WHEN YOU'RE UNHAPPY WE'RE UNHAPPY! (With friends like us, who needs enemies?)
3. You will make friends you can trust there. You are simply to amazing not to. Just give it time. You're like me. By senior year it'll be just like dear ole abington. Except you'll still email us ALL THE TIME (threatening stare)
In the meantime. I love you. Call me if you need to. It'll all be alright
Posted by: Bess at April 23, 2006 3:48 PM